To my darling lover-
When I was a seed in the ground you
were the sun and the water that helped me out of the dirt. Weeds can be
beautiful too. Like the dandelions you pick for me on your bike rides. But you know
this already, don’t you? You’ve known all along, instinctively, all the things
it took me years to learn. You know that wild flowers are not born with broken
hearts, and that love songs are not battle songs or songs of fear, they are
gospel songs and symphonies. Thank you for always being where you were meant to
be, even when I was lost. Thank you for being smart back when I was being so
unbelievably stupid. Thank you for biding your time when I was wasting mine.
Thank you for never disappointing me no matter how many times I may have
disappointed you. Thank you for never being afraid of my passion or your own.
Thank you for recognizing the value of independence and individuality, and for
never asking me to be anyone except exactly who I am. Thank you for living life
and love with the bravery and strength of a hero. Thank you for being a
cartographer of that love, and for using my body as the map. On our own we are
two bright stars in a vast and lonesome sky. Together we are a constellation. A
long and crooked road can still lead to a promised land. The past is a house
that has burned down, so far behind us we can no longer see the smoke nor taste
the ashes. Not that we look back anyway. Ours is a journey facing right now.
Fluid. Impermanent. Beautiful. Evolving. Unknown. Every blink is a beginning.
Every hungry kiss an adventure. This is as easy as breathing and as difficult
as climbing a mountain. I am your artist and your muse and your lascivious
partner in crime. Inspired by your goodness. Humbled by your greatness. Warmed
by your kindness. Drenched by your desire. I love you with the grace of an
angel and the courage of an astronaut. We do not belong to each other we belong
to this moment and this moment belongs to us.
We surrender.
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