THERE ARE WORSE THINGS TO LIVE WITH

A.)

It only takes one
to ruin everything

one touch
trapped under my skin
one memory
caught in a jar
one stone
left unturned

and just like that
crash

On this afternoon and in this moment
I want to die

You heard me

I would rather die
than live with this


B.)

Kill me now, I said

for I swear on all that is holy
if the choices were only two
given to me by the gods:

"Live with this longing or
evaporate"

I would surely choose
to vanish like mist

I would choose death
over pain


C.)

There are worse things to live with than love, my friend sighed
but she doesn’t believe in ghosts or grilled cheese sandwiches
so her advice cannot be trusted

Please, I said
put an end to me

or promise that one day I will wake up
and he will be beside me again

otherwise I don’t think
I can outlive this love

not in this lifetime
not even in a galaxy far, far away


D.)

I stand at the top of the Headlands
and can see a dozen airplanes
waiting for their turn to land

My hands are on my chest
so that nothing falls out

My only comfort is in knowing
that all of these bridges
lead to you

I don’t think I can outlive this love